i always walk alone:p

guys do you know the song "goodbye my lover" by james blunt? hehe.. nothing so special.. i just like it.. this is my song for the day. hehe... here is the lyrics..

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

in life, there is always someone that will leave you behind.. nothing is permanent in life.. we dont know when will be the right time for everyhting... let us just enjoy life to the fullest.. because we never know what will be the next.. who will be next...:p

just got home.haha.. until know, im so shock.haha.. about?hahaha. anyway... im so tired. hhaayy...

Destiny refers to a predetermined course of events. It may be conceived as a predetermined future, whether in general or of an individual. It is a concept based on the belief that there is a fixed natural order to the universe.

its very inevitable.. i want to forget him. but i always see him. i know nothing will happen to us. i am just looking for "sakit". but i still like him. i dont know why. we have seperate lives.. very different culture. how can we be together? i did my part. but he does nothing.

every cigarette reminds me of him. every eyeglass hits me..it really hurts.. promise..i dont talk. but deep inside, there is something. his teeth and lips always linger my mind..

am i really falling? xet. i can't. i must not fall for him! only cha and isie know what i am saying!haha..

xet what is this falling! i cant explain! xet xet xet. when he is near, im not the same. i keep on hiding it..its so crazy.. how could it be!xet xet xet.

when he looks at me, i felt good inside. is this really happening?! hhaay! xet xet xet! haha

only destiny will tell.. its very inevitable..

nothing is new

just got home:p nothing is new. hhm. ahh ders one ! i bought a puppy.its terrier. its kinda black with brown. i cant explain its color. i named it "cinta pertama". she is a girl. hehe..

i bought it because i want to have someone beside me everytime im here. because im living alone.lol.

hhaayy. i cant say anything. im not tired. i cant sleep. i cant eat. i dont know why.hahaha.

im starting to be crazy! ehhehehe. tc!